i wish i could be so much more for you than what i am. i wish i could heal you with a single word like we always joke about. i wish i could hold you and help you forget about all your pain and if for one moment, make you happy. if i could only be for you what he was for me.... i wish you had someone like that.

if only you could see your beauty, maybe then it wouldn't be so hard for you to understand what i see in you. how i see such a man of integrity and warmth... a man of worthy.

we only see what we want of ourselves and we humble people can become too humble for our own good.... and we continue to insult ourselves....

if anything, i wish this song to find you.

a coma might feel better than this
attempting to discover where to begin
you're weighed down
you're full of something
of sickness and desertion
you're weighed down your full of something
you're underneath it all
so say goodbye to love
and hold your head up high
there's no need to rush
we're all just waiting
waiting to die
hope in a better place
is all i need
with moments of innocence
and mystery
oh it's the little things you miss
like waking up all alone
oh it's the little things you miss
when you're underneath it all
so say goodbye to love
and hold your head up high
there's no need to rush
we're all just waiting
waiting to die
all your friends seem like enemies
when you're broken down and empty
oh, all your friends seem like enemies
when your broken down and empty
oh
so say goodbye to love
and hold your head up high
there's no need to rush
we're all just waiting
waiting to die
oh woah oh oh
oh woah oh
oh woah oh oh

waiting by dallas green.

esuna, my friend.