you would know what to say and what to do about this situation. you'd make everything right.

why is it i feel so alone now? why is it every time there's something in my life, it has to leave either by force or by will? when is there ever a point where life says, "just let her be. she's not okay anymore. she can't take this anymore!"

god, if you really are there? you can stop fucking with me now. i've lost two grandparents and my father. school's a bitch right now and i really don't need everyone in my life blaming me for crap i don't know. give me a fucking break for once. i don't need to be this strong. i need to have something in life that's easy. that's okay. that's an escape from this god damn hell of a life. okay?