i've been really happy about this certain thing lately. it happened friday, i don't know if you saw it.

he gave me a promise ring, daddy. and it's perfect. and you'd be so happy seeing how crazy in love i am with this man and how happy he makes me and how well he treats me.

i wish you could be here, daddy.... to see your little girl growing up and having someone love her to pieces. to bits. to tiny particles. i wish you were here to see everything and be so happy for me.... i guess you are seeing all this though... or at least i hope so, daddy. i'd feel so awful if you weren't....

anyway... this seems silly... writing to you when you'll never read it... but i wanted you to know how happy he's making me.... that you don't need to worry about this one because he's a real gentleman. i wanted you to know that he's loving me dearly.

i watched this movie today and this woman with cancer said that what she wanted most was to see a man love her daughter before she passed away.... you saw the beginning.... you saw the first ten months... a year and some later from when you passed... he's still doing what he did to me. making me crazy and silly.

i really miss you, you know. you really will be the only man in my life daddy, regardless of how close he comes to. you'll always be my hero, okay? be proud daddy, you did such a good job....

goodnight daddy. visit me, please?