i can't explain how it feels. you have someone and in a simple second, they're gone.

i don't mean a lover. i don't mean a person you wanted to get to know.... it's this person that... that just completes you. not in the romantic sense, but in general. they get you. they completely get you and all of a sudden, they're gone. they've had their fill, they've done what they could and then they're gone. and you're left to pick up all these pieces you didn't know you were made of. you're left to cry, and sob, and lose your breath because it's all you can do to keep alive right now.

and you lose faith. you lose hope that you'll ever find someone to completely get you again. someone that can just look at you and know what you need. whether it be a hug, or some space. whether it be a slinking upstairs to say i'm sorry and give you a hug or a goofy smile and laugh at something silly you had done. you lose so much of yourself because you're jagged again. you have nothing filling those empty parts that were full of someone else.

this best friend. this soul mate. this person that knew how to brighten your world in an instant; who made you feel like you deserved the world. who made you feel invincible and like you could live a thousand years....

well when they leave... you have to cope and you end up having to realize you will never have that again.... and you are so happy you had it but you also realize you will always be missing that for the rest of your life. you will never have that again and nothing hurts worse than that.

nothing hurts worse when you know they're not a phone call away.